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But I want to be perfect

I’m frustrated with my body, it’s unfair how I honestly do try to lose weight, but I’m still this fat ugly hippo. The problem is I’ll just say “it’s alright I’ll start properly tomorrow” or “who even cares anyway”. I just need to get my head straight and stop eating crap and actually make an effort to exercise, not just constantly making up excuses. I know this shouldn’t be an excuse but I honestly have got naturally big bones, I mean I’m size 12 and my ribs really stick out, lol my body just doesn’t make sense. I wish I could just have a nice toned body that I could feel comfortable in. The last thing I want right now is to spend another summer cowering in my bikini in the corner.

But life’s a bitch and it will never happen, so you know what I’ll just have to get used to the fact that I will always be big.